Hello everyone..... ^^

hello!!!
it's saturday!! HAHAHAHAHA...
I love weekend...
no special story for today... AH! I wanna promote my friend favorite song...
the title is "see no more"
It's sung by JOE JONAS.. but this time he sing the song alone or we can say this is his solo song..
Actually,I haven't listened to the song but I think the song will be nice.
I don't know why,because I love some of Jonas brothers songs..
oh yes!
have u listened to Selena Gomez song which the title is "who says"
I love that song so much...
Try to watch the music video if u haven't.
she looks so beautiful there...

 

캬캬캬!!!

ㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ.....
I have missed so many stories,rite?
I suddenly stop writing my blog since several months ago..
I'm kinda miss my blog,so today I decided to write again.
There are so many stories to tell to my dearest blog but I don't know where to start.
wanna start from the sad one or the happy one?
It's better to start from the happy one because this is my first since I don't blog for longgggg time...
kekekekekeke.....

SO,where should I start??
emmm... okay,I start from the things that I really love for today..
Now,I'm learning korea language. It's kinda hard because I have to memorize so many vocabularies...
uuugghhhh.... But I have to keep going if i wanna be 100%..
Is my korean better now? I think so #self-praised.. kekekekeke...

Then,about the group that I love the most!
SUPER JUNIOR!!
yes!!!! they are so great..
maybe some of you know that they have just released their 5th album.
It's Mr.Simple... >.<
Then,today they got the first rank again in music show - today is Music Bank..
FYI,today is the 7th times they are on the top..
Hahahaha... okay then,I think the story about Suju will be boring if you're not interested with them.
but for the one who is the same with me,(give me five!!),Suju is so great ,rite??
I can't stop listening to their songs.. I don't even get bored though I have listened to their songs for thousand times.. kekekekeke... how bout you?? the same?? kekekekekeke...

So,I think this is I wanna share for today. It's kinda late already.. Time for bed before my mom gets angry..
oh yes, here is some of suju's photos,maybe u already had them in ur PC but I just wanna share..
kekekeke...
여러분 안녕....
잘자....

우리 슈버주니 어에어!!

aaaarrrrggghhhhh.....

louloreally... I can't bear it anymore!
it's like I wanna shout at him ad kick him out!!!

this recent days,he really made me really wanna cry.
my mother has changed because of him.
my mom's expression is different when she talks to me.
her smile is very expensive,but when my mom talks to him,she smile and laugh a lot.
it makes me sad.
the person who really understand my feeling is my dad. 
but now he has gone,so there's nobody who I can share to.

just now,I cried in the bathroom. I took my phone and played the music shoutly so my mom won't know that i'm crying.
he's building a barrier between me and my mom. really!!!
i know that my mom loves me. 
there's no mother who doesn't love their children.
but I wander,,,, if I and he get into an accident at the same time and both of us are going to die.
then we are sent to the hospital. our rooms are far away.
mine is at the right and his at the left.
then when my mom comes,which side will she go??
right or left???
i think it will be left..
because she'll do the best from the best for him.

i feel it...
when I want to eat something,my mom will ask me to wait for him and eat with him.
It happened before. that time,I wanna eat papaya.
I ask my mom to slice it to me.
But my mom didn't want to.
then the next day when he was at my home,my mom sliced the papaya for him and they ate by themselves without asking me whether I wanna eat or not.

that feeling...
it's hurt...
I feel lonely..
I feel this world is too wide and I stand on it alone.

wow...

it's been a while since I posted the last posting...
but it doesn't mean that nothing happened during those days..
a lot of thing happen,but I'm too lazy to typed them on my blog...
but today I want to add something new on my blog..
I don't wanna talk bout the things that has passed,so I just start what I'm doing..

ok... 
today I have just finished the korean drama again.. hahahaha...
the title is "marry me,mary!" 
the drama was so good.. I like the story,the actor,the actress,the songs,and so many others...

here is the cover..

still remember Moon Geun Yong??
the girl in "cinderella step sister"..
she is veryyyyy different in this drama.
♥ her...

she's adorable Beautiful!!!
I am amazed by her beauty.. =D

She's beautiful,isn't she???? ♥♥♥♥

Mom,please be healthy...

since my dad has gone,my mom becomes weaker and weaker.
she easily gets sick...
I do everything that I can do.
Remind her to take a rest becz since my dad has gone,she always keep herself busy by working,she'll find something that she can do so she will forget bout my dad.
I know she does that to show that she is a tough woman,but I know inside her heart,she miss my dad...

in another case,I do miss my dad too.
but I don't wanna my mom know that. everyday,I keep on smiling like nothing happens.
this is the first X-mas I spent without my dad.
really,this month is a hard month for me and for my mom.

if God give me a wish..
I'll ask for my mom happiness and health..

It's 9 december 2010

now we R going to pass this 2010 and face the new year 2011.
this 2010. december is the year i'll remember till the end of my life.
it's 9 december,2010.
in the morning around 6 a.m,i found my dad didn't breath anymore.
he has passed away.
that time,it's like I am dreaming.
I don't believe that my dad has left me forever.
I kept calling him.
I kept shaking his body.
but it's the same,no answer came out from his mouth.

then,I pass my five days in the house where he is put-we call it "rumah duka".
Everyday,I imagine that he is still alive.
then,I realise that he is not here anymore.
then I started to cry again.
I don't want to cry,because,if  I cry,my mother will cry too.
so,when I started to cry,I'll go somewhere else where there's nobody.

then,after 10 days,I miss my dad.
I want to see him.
untill now,I still miss him.
when I pass a place that he has been there before,my tears will fall down.

there's a night when I felt all of this is just a dream.
I closed my eyes then I opened eyes. then I went inside my parents'bedroom.
Inside the room,I just can see my mom.
there's no daddy. then I began to cry again.
this isnot a dream,but I wish it is...

es teler!!! ♥

yesterday,my Friends(Monica & Florensia) and I went to Medan Mall to buy some books for our National Exam(that is very cruel) and for the test that we're going to have when we're going to get in into a university.
The test is called SMPTN..
That test is killing us bcz it's veryyyyyy difficult. We've to know all the material from SMA1 till SMA3 !
= =a

then after we've bought those books,we began to starve....
then we decided to have our lunch @ ES TELER..
It's so YUmmy... hahahahahahaahah....
That is the 1st time I eat @ ES TEler..
the beverage isn't too expensive but the taste is good.. hahahahaha...