luck... where are you???

2012 has just started... It should be a very lucky year because it's a dragon year according to Chinese calender. But why I got so many unfortunate troubles? arrgghhh!!!
I'm going crazy... There are so many problems which I can't describe it one by one.
I don't know how to solve these problems so I just can keep silent and let it flow.
I really hope I can disappear from this world because I'm living the world which is not me at all!
I can't do anything I love but I keep on doing something I hate!!!
aaarrrggghhh!!
I don't know how to describe this feeling...