Mom,please be healthy...

since my dad has gone,my mom becomes weaker and weaker.
she easily gets sick...
I do everything that I can do.
Remind her to take a rest becz since my dad has gone,she always keep herself busy by working,she'll find something that she can do so she will forget bout my dad.
I know she does that to show that she is a tough woman,but I know inside her heart,she miss my dad...

in another case,I do miss my dad too.
but I don't wanna my mom know that. everyday,I keep on smiling like nothing happens.
this is the first X-mas I spent without my dad.
really,this month is a hard month for me and for my mom.

if God give me a wish..
I'll ask for my mom happiness and health..

It's 9 december 2010

now we R going to pass this 2010 and face the new year 2011.
this 2010. december is the year i'll remember till the end of my life.
it's 9 december,2010.
in the morning around 6 a.m,i found my dad didn't breath anymore.
he has passed away.
that time,it's like I am dreaming.
I don't believe that my dad has left me forever.
I kept calling him.
I kept shaking his body.
but it's the same,no answer came out from his mouth.

then,I pass my five days in the house where he is put-we call it "rumah duka".
Everyday,I imagine that he is still alive.
then,I realise that he is not here anymore.
then I started to cry again.
I don't want to cry,because,if  I cry,my mother will cry too.
so,when I started to cry,I'll go somewhere else where there's nobody.

then,after 10 days,I miss my dad.
I want to see him.
untill now,I still miss him.
when I pass a place that he has been there before,my tears will fall down.

there's a night when I felt all of this is just a dream.
I closed my eyes then I opened eyes. then I went inside my parents'bedroom.
Inside the room,I just can see my mom.
there's no daddy. then I began to cry again.
this isnot a dream,but I wish it is...

es teler!!! ♥

yesterday,my Friends(Monica & Florensia) and I went to Medan Mall to buy some books for our National Exam(that is very cruel) and for the test that we're going to have when we're going to get in into a university.
The test is called SMPTN..
That test is killing us bcz it's veryyyyyy difficult. We've to know all the material from SMA1 till SMA3 !
= =a

then after we've bought those books,we began to starve....
then we decided to have our lunch @ ES TELER..
It's so YUmmy... hahahahahahaahah....
That is the 1st time I eat @ ES TEler..
the beverage isn't too expensive but the taste is good.. hahahahaha...

 

                 
                                                                                                                

                                         

Hello.....

because of "THERESIA"..
she introduced to me this song...

SHINEE-HELLO

It's a nice song..

I ♥ it...

hav U listen To it??

try to listen.

It's me......

Ther're two Things in this world that I dunt wanna care bout.
Ther're my relatives and the people who dunt wanna know me..
The "people" I mean here R the people who wanna know my friend but they dunt wanna know me.
Actually they know me but I'm invisible for 'em.. I'm just a ghost for 'em..
It's OK for me as long as I dunt need 'em.
SO,,,I dunt care bout 'em N I don't know 'em either..

Last day,one of the "people" had an accident.
She's having menstruation but unfortunately the mens blood was on her uniform skirt...
One of my friend saw it then she asked me to let her know.
N do U know wHt's my answer?? "NO!"
yap! I said NO!
I dunt wanna let her know bcz I dunt know her.
then she-herself let that "girl" know bout that thing.
then I just looked at her without ant expression.
Then we-I N my friends left her with "her" stuff...

sooo,,,I got a new principle...
If U R good to ME,then I will be good to U 100 times. But If U R bad,I'll be worse than U.
I can be an angle or A devil,it depends On how do U treat me...

PasTA!!

New drama!!
I'm watching it...
here's the cover..

 

in this drama i can listen to kyuhyun's---super junior's member---voice..

it's a nice song..

hahahahaha...

maybe U hav to watch this drama to know the song bcz I don't know the title of the song..

hhahahhahaahah...

but this drama is not bad...

eeemmmmm...

it's the end of October...
and It's BEEn a month I haven't posted anything..
But it doesn't mean that everything was going smoothly like I wISH...
There were so many things happened in this month....

last wednesday(27 Oct) I have just finished my monthly test...
I was so stress because of the tests..
Fiuuuhhh...

then,,,Now my mother and her sisters have been together again after the terrible incident last month...
last month,we(I and my parents) have a big dispute with two of my aunts(my mother's sister)..
they came and then they started to shout.
they yelled at me.
Not just that,ONE of them (my mom's elder sister) wanted to hit me.
But fortunately,when she came to me,my parents and my best friend(WIESHE-she was there) came to stop her. Then my father's face became so fierce.
I never saw my dad was so angry.
because of her did,they were pushed out by my father.
Then they shouted in front of my house like the insane women...
from that moment,I don't want to hear their name,any new information of them.
I DON'T CARE!!!
I wish I never have those aunt!
I HATE THEM!!!!
they made my mom cried,they made my dad sad.

till Now,I can't forget bout that incident..
I still have the feeling till now..
actually,,I don't wanna hear their name. Till now,I haven't said any words of them like aunt.
I can't say that "aunt" word. It's too hard..
Everybody ask me to forgive them.. I wanna forgive them.. REally..
BUt I can't...
They made me to have this feeling...
I don't know when I can Forgive them....