what a day...........

it's been a while I didn't post anything in my blog.
there're some reason.
1. I dn't have anything to be posted.
2. I was too busy.
3. I was sad.

tody I got a bad news. one of my family member pass away.
she is in Malaysia. so tomorrow,my parents R going to Malaysia.
so I will be alone at home for 10 days...
I have to do all by myself..
I don't feel alone or scare because I will be left alone,because actually,the fact is "I'm all alone".
that's the real fact bout my live.
I don't need relatives,bcz they just like a money satelite.
they will be anywhere as long as there R money there..
they're shit!
I hate them...

the people I need the most R my friends and my parents...
actually I wish I could get a brother or sister,but that's impossible...
so,the thing I can pray is I hope my friends will love my forever like I do...

U know??
actully,today i'm goin' to my friend's b'dy party,but I can't join the party just bcz thre is someone who pass away..
my parents said that there is a tradition,when Ur member of Ur family pass away,U can't join any party.
wat tradition is that??
that's nonsense for me.

B4 the party,I was like a crazy girl,asked all my friend whether they could take me home or not after the party. then all I got R "no" answers.
I was so stressed at that time.
I really wanna go to that party. bcz it would be so fun...
then,yesterday I asked my cousin. then he said "ok then,I'll fecth U at 10 pm from the party"....
I was soooooo happy... the smile couldn't get off from my face...
We(I & my friends) have made a plan. the plan is...
after I got home from my part time job, I took a bath then clothes and make up by myself. then Winly-my friend,she would fecth me aroud 6.30 pm.

everything's Ok... Everyone's happy untill my parents said "U R not allowed to go to the party"
Damn!!!
I cried for 3 hours bcz of that...